Monday, November 16, 2009

A shot at an intriguing introduction...



A blog is a place to write out your thoughts, opinions, beliefs, emotions, and whatever random thought you may have. . and that's exactly what I plan to do. So, don't be alarmed when that's what you find here.

To introduce myself,
I'm sixteen years old, I love Jesus Christ with all of my heart, I have amazing parents, my sister is my best friend, my brothers and I don't have quite the relationship we had at one time, but my brother in law plays the big brother role perfectly, and I love my new niece very, very much.
I was home-schooled my whole life, I worked hard at graduating early and accomplished that this year. I love the outdoors, I have a few close friends who are very precious to me, I love to travel, I love bible studies, I love praising the Lord.
I will elaborate on each of those, and much more in the future, but for now.. we'll talk about what's been on my mind lately.


First of all, I am a servant and disciple of the Lord Jesus Christ and He is involved in everything that I do, I don't want this blog to be any exception to that.
He is the single thing in my life that is steady, never changing, ever faithful, and trustworthy of all that I am, particularly my heart.

I realized over the past few days that "being in love" has been an idol to me. I've never dated anyone, kissed anyone, or even held anyone's hand for that matter.. but that didn't change the fact that thoughts of finding that person had engulfed my mind. Don't get me wrong, I don't believe that it's wrong to desire that.. It becomes wrong when it's all you think about.
I realized that I wasn't trusting the Lord with it, I was trying to figure it out in my own mind. God is so much bigger than that.

There are only a few people that I've actually been able to talk to about this. Everyone else automatically spits out "you're still young". Yes, I am young, but what people don't understand is that if I were to be worried about my career, college, or a job, well that would be perfectly okay, right? Well that's not what I want for my life. I understand that society tells you that you won't be happy without those things.. but I won't be happy with them. Those aren't the desires God has given me. Since as far back as I can remember, all I want is to love the Lord with my whole heart, get married to a man who loves the Lord with his whole heart, and have lots of babies and raise them to love the Lord with their whole heart. But that's not okay, right?

Seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things will be added unto you- Matthew 6:33

Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart- Psalm 37:4

His word is faithful, and I know that He placed those desires in my heart for a reason. And I know He has a perfect timing for everything. I am still young, and I don't need to be in any kind of hurry.. but that doesn't mean that my heart desires should be any different than they will be years from now. I need to focus on Him, and not worry so much about the future. It's perfectly natural to desire love and affection, but at this point I should much more concerned about HIS love and affection. Which brings me to the subject of waiting....

In this day and age for a 16 year old to have never had a boyfriend is a strange, unusual thing.
Some people have the misconception that it's because of my father.. but that couldn't be more wrong. Yes, I was raised to not date.. but my parents never forced that on us. All three of my older siblings dated, and second to God, I credit them for why I chose not to. All three of them ended up with their hearts broken at some point, which made me realize that what my parents taught us was so true. If you completely trust the Lord with your future soul-mate, and keep Him first, you won't ever have to experience heart break in that form! In my case, being a girl, I am submitted to my dad as my spiritual authority. God has set him in my life to be my head and my covering. Before it's time for me to be with anyone, God will reveal to my dad who my Mr. Right is. You might think that's crazy, but I've seen it happen. If I step out from under that covering and try to find Mr. Right on my own, that's when I open myself up to heart break.

When I do find Mr. Right, I want to be able to give him my whole heart.. not little bitty piece of it that are left over from previous relationships. I want him to know that he was worth the wait, and that there's no one else that ever made me feel the way I'm going to feel with him, that there was never anyone else that was worthy of holding my heart, that I kept myself pure for him, and that I saved my first kiss for him to have forever. *smile* In Jesus' name.

So the main purpose of this post is to say that from now on.. I'm waiting entirely on the Lord, trusting entirely in His timing, and not letting my desires turn in to idols in Jesus' name.


The end.